Diamonds are forever

Our lives are full of mistakes
roads we didn't follow
things we didn't do
things
things
things we should have said
full
full
of noise
yearnings
numbness
and our minds
our poor mind are full of the past...
the past....
oh...the past is our avenger..
It's as if we've created
an angel of darkness
with beautiful, mellow eyes
and harsh heart,
with bloody feathers,
needy
and ruthless
bossing us
just because of this
simple
one
reason:

We
Didn't
Follow
Our
Hearts.

Nothing more,
nothing less.

We didn't follow are hearts.

I didn't follow my heart.

Is that what you really
want,
need.
deserve
to have written on your headstone?
Fuck off,
of course not.
When you follow your heart,or even better
when
you
follow
your
heart,
every mistake you make gets you a step closer
to dignity,
to self reliance,
to joy.
Because heartbeat is
our inner shaman's teaching.
And we respect.
And we follow.